wednesday was a day of non-stop crying, a day of being visibly shaken, a day of being the entire opposite of the usual yu li. and yet the vulnerability i displayed within the ministry was reciprocated with a genuine concern, prayer, and God’s words that worked through people, who were simply His vessels. the ministry is a community that we sometimes take for granted, and yet it is a community of constant outflowing love from each and every individual: love that is showered often at the expense of oneself, at the expense of oneself’s comfort. i’ve suddenly come to realise this ministry is a neverending source of joy for me amidst all the things i could be pursuing, and i hope you, soon enough, can come to see this as well.

and sincerely other than the ministry, studies, and hanging there to see a personal breakthrough, i really have no energy for anything else.